I love los with all of my being. If it wasn't for los, i would not be the happy snus user I am today. I might still be a grumpy dipper. I could even still be an evil smoker. But thanks to the wonder of los, I am here.

I also have been flirting with portions.... those harlots!

I like them a little more now than I used to. The drip isn't so bad as I remember and the material is not as sandpapery. I even went and bought some at the local tobacco store today.

Now, I know this is mostly because I love the new Jak's wintergreen flavor and that sexy lumberjack snus got me to put it in my mouth. The portions... Also, since I have cut down quite a bit, it isn't so bad to put in a portion once or twice a day... even some General white ::gasp::

This is big for me. Bigger than the vampire craze to pale kids. Bigger than free beer for a year. Even bigger than my OUTSTANDING PERSONALITY. (I mean p3n1s by that). That's big.

So, I kinda feel lost with this. I still use my gul at least once a day but have been mixing in some portions along with a fair amount of snuff. I feel like I have to relearn to love myself again. (Not in the ferret fondling department, in the accepting facts about myself that may be difficult. This is how I felt after I realized I liked the new NKOTB album.)

This is a good thing post PACT I think. Snus costs more to buy online, I have three years worth of my favorite snus in the freezer hidden behind the body parts , snuff is relatively cheap and I can pick up some portions at the local tobacco place.

So why do I feel sad?

Is the honeymoon over? Has the fat lady finished singing? Or, do I have to go out and buy one tin of every portion I am legally allowed to purchase in this country to find my favorite portion? Probably...

There goes the bank account again.